Friday 4pm

This week was one of those weeks that was better just spent in bed with a constant supply of coffee, a snoring, cuddly dog and my laptop. But instead I had to pull up my big lady panties, put some color on my face, actually wash and comb my hair and face the big wide world out there, with the promise that it will be Friday soon.

I’m not the sort of person who like to wish my life away… okay, who am I kidding, by Wednesday of every week, I look forward to Friday. It’s not that I don’t enjoy my job, hell who doesn’t find the crazy criminal mind interesting, but an overdose and it starts to rub off on you. The crazy part, not the criminal part.

My reason for this whole conversation though is to work out whyyyy I love Friday afternoon 4pm so much. It’s my job to ask why, okay? It’s because how it makes me feel. How does it make me feel? Free. To do what I choose to do, for as long as I feel like doing it… or until Sunday night 11pm, when I go to bed, like a responsible person. Cos yeah, I’m mostly responsible.

But! Friday nights… it has so many possibilities and there are two ways I spent mine, both end the same though. I go out for drinks with friends after work. Have a wonderfully nice bottle of wine, or two with a yummy dinner, go home, cuddle with my doggy in front of the TV and pass out.

Or… on my way home, buy pizza and pork ribs, because yummy. Drag my mattress into my lounge with all my bedding, strip down to my undies, get comfy and proceed to catch up on all my recorded episodes of everything, while I munch on my pizza and ribs. Until I cuddle with my doggy and pass out.

And this is why I will forever love Friday 4pm.

 

Body:
Skin:  *YS&YS* Mina Skin – Skin Fair 2014
Hair:  *Milk* Hair High End Hippy *Browns*

Clothes:
Top: [BOOB-LiSH] Strip Top – pinky
Shorts: .Shi : Hive Highwaist Shorts {Black & White} [Rigged Mesh]
Shoes: .::ColdAmbitionz Mainstore::. [CA] Infinity Sandal Noir (Slink High)

Accessories:
Make up: Boobielicious Soiree – Moondust Night Eyeshadow – Skin Fair 2014
Piercings:  Puncture Anti-Eyebrow (Gemstone) Basics
Necklace and Bracelet: [MANDALA] POLLY
Headband: ::LEONARD:: Daylight Roses ~Headband
Piercings on hand: HollyWeird – Punkture – Mesh Hand Dermals  – UNISEX –  Like Sales Room

Friendships and Expectations

I have so much on my heart today, but to get all the thoughts structured so it’s understandable might prove difficult.

Friendships and expectations. Do they go hand in hand? Can friendships exist without expectations? When you don’t expect anything from your friend, is that not just an acquaintance? There is a saying, if something is free, its not worth anything. So if there is no expectation, is there really a friendship?

There is not a lot of things I hate in life, I don’t bother poisoning myself, but I do hate the term “fake friends”. A friend is never fake. If the person does not live up to your expectation, it doesn’t make them fake, it makes them not your friend, even if you are under the misconception that they were. They may just have other priorities.

A friend of mine has been going through a tough time and said only a handful of people stood by him during this time, so he may not return to SL as he doesn’t see the point. Does this make my friend a “fake friend” to the handful that stood by him, me included? Or are the other 100s who never Im’ed him, are they the “fake friends”? Or was my expectation of our friendship too high and his, too high of the other 100s.

Friendship is, I think, a constant toss up of knowing when to have expectations and when not.  I have been feeling unimportant to another friend and was about to complain about it, when I realized there are also people I was neglecting. I know friendship is not always about what you get back, but maybe I was expecting too much from this friendship and I was just as guilty of not giving as much to other friendships. Complaining would make me a hypocrite but it does mean I need to work harder on friendships that work harder for me, and let those go that don’t.  That almost sound selfish, but why put energy towards something and it’s not going anywhere, while other people put energy towards you and could become your greatest friend.

Regroup, refocus. One thing I have learned and keep learning is, a friend to all is a friend to none and peace begin where expectations end, so focus on those friendships that focus on you and have peace about the other quintessences who where never your friend anyway.

Body:
Skin:  [the Skinnery] Runa – (honey)
Hair: TRUTH HAIR Delta –  browns

Clothes:
Jacket: .: LIKE DESIGN :. Rebekah Jacket With Tank Black White (I did not wear the tank)
Top: [BOOB-LiSH] Nettop – Mario Star
Pants: [Moyet]*High Waist Leggings** – Suicide Dollz Event
Shoes: _CandyDoll_ Newell Heels Black (FEET NOT INCLUDED)

Accessories:
Eyes: #adored – dream eyes – glacier  – Whore Couture Exclusive
Nails: #adored – fishnet polish hands/feet {slink avatar enhancement} – Whore Couture Exclusive
Bracelets: dl:: Emo Queen Perfect Hands
Earrings: ::DirtyMind:: The Plastique Earrings
Sunglasses: Izzie’s – Oversized Sunglasses (mesh)

Pose:
ILAYA Street Model 4 and 5

LOTD

Body:
Skin: [the Skinnery] Sasha
Hair: [LeLutka]-DAISY hair/Dark Brunette

Clothes:
Top: ::Twisted & Spoiled :: vests  – old Inventory Item
Pants: [Cynful] Skinny Jeans – Dark Blue –  FROST EVENT
Jacket: [BOOB-LiSH] Mesh Mini Jacket with Texture Hud
Shoes: N-core SUBLIME

Accessories:
Earrings: .:* LOULOU&CO *:. – Earrings :: HYPERION :: –  FROST EVENT
Piercing: xoxoFaDeD iNKxoxo *Enticing*
Piercing: Hollyweird .HW. PC//12 -Mesh Piercing- Suicide Dollz
Rings: [tea.s] Kitty Ring Set