Hi, I am square.


Cao recently did a post on her blog on depression, click on the link, it’s an interesting read. The post touched me, not because I am depressed, far from it, but she also talked about fitting in. Trying to force a square into a circle. That is exactly how I see myself.

A few weeks ago I asked the question on Plurk what they do to fit in and most of the answers were nothing. They gave up trying to fit in, they don’t care about fitting in. In my opinion, I think you only think you don’t, but in some degree you always try to fit in. I am an introvert, I tried being more extroverted, I find it stressful. Does that make me weird? If not, why do people judge me because of it? They don’t? Yes, they do. I have friends that get angry because I don’t feel like tp’ing them the second I log on to SL or tp to them. I have friends that keeps posting on FB, if you don’t IM me, then you are not my friend and you don’t care. I do care. If I don’t have anything to say, I’m not going to IM you and most days I don’t have anything to say. I’m also fine with just IM’ing you. I don’t need to have your avatar standing a few feet from me every single day we are online together. Why? I don’t know. I just like being on my own. I’m happy on my own. I’m relaxed on my own. I like having my own space. I like seeing you once in awhile, I feel pressured to see you everyday. Don’t get me wrong, I love my friends, and I love that my friends IM me, I enjoy friends, I just don’t have the same expectations of our friendship, I can’t be social every single day. Does this make me weird? I think so. I tried changing, I tried fitting into the circle. Sometimes I just need people to stretch their circle a little and I will make my edges smoother. Nothing is ever just black or white.

For all the friends I’ve lost over the past years, I see why you gave up. Sorry about that. Bridgette, thank you for stretching your circle 😀 ♥

Hi, I am square

Body:
Skin:  DeeTaleZ Skin A.T.W. Hanna *gloss* Mixedtype – The Azz Fair
Hair: “”D!va”” Hair “Flora” 

Clothes:
Top and skirt: {dollle*} 070 Long Sleeve Loose Shirt  and {dollle*} 072 Open Zip Leather Mini Skirt  – She & Him Event
Boots: {DarkWare} Zombie Boots Pyscho Pink/Goth Black

Accessories:
Necklace: KOSH– SANCTUARY NECKLACE -inverted-
Piercings – Chest: .Pekka. Rake Piercing (Chest) Unisex
Ring L: O.M.E.N – Ring of Passion – Black
Collar: {DarkWare} Tainted -Black-+
Tattoo: PMS – Flower Abs

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Lola Ghost

To live and learn and have fun along the way. :D

6 thoughts on “Hi, I am square.”

  1. Squeeeaaalllllll!! TY! :* You are wrong tho. You are not weird, you (and I) are quiet introverts. I get the same IMs when I log in, but see? Like the world, SL was created for extroverts. I have always hated that the log in/log off chat bubble even exists and actually turned it off on my viewer. (Everyone else still sees me log but I don’t see them.) If you like to read, I enjoyed “Quiet. The Power of Introverts in a World that Can’t Stop Talking” by Susan Cain. But just know. We are not weird, we are our normal. We are watchers and thinkers and sometimes in life while others are talking about problems, we are quietly solving them. Thank you Lola for the shout out!

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